Drama - I Hate You, But Come Closer
Mark's parents visited and have now gone. I guess the trip was a "success", as much as it can be. I see now why I get so upset after being with them, even though they appear to be friendly towards me. I am treated like an outsider, yet in a polite way, if that makes any sense. I suppose that is natural - I am not their child, but for me it is a bit different. I do not have my own side of the family with connections. My expectations from them are too high I am sure. I told my sister in law that we are not the In-Laws, we are the Out-Laws. She loved it and feels the same.I talked about it in marriage counseling yesterday, so I don't really feel like going into details. They seem a bit irrelevant now.WHY in the world I created so much drama for myself yesterday, I do not know, but I regret it so much. I have no idea what I could have done to keep it from happening though. Yes, I could have waited a day to calm down, but that did not even occur to me and who knows if it would have worked. This is a crazy long post. There are times I simply cannot sit back and keep my mouth shut, even if I do not understand or know why.I received a group message out of the blue on Facebook yesterday that absolutely infuriated me. I was so angry that several times I had to question myself and try to be absolutely honest about whether I was hypomanic. I *hate hate hate* that. Sometimes people JUST GET MAD, yet....
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