6th Anniversary Today!

Today is our anniversary!  6 years, but we've been together over 16.  In 16 years, SO MUCH has happened!  Even in the last 6 years!  It's amazing to me how people can stay together this long.  We've weathered many storms and had some very awesome times together.  I wouldn't want to be with anyone else.  Yet...even after all this time, I still worry that we will break up one day.  Everyone in my life has always gone away eventually, except for this relationship.  I've never had any relationship - spouse, friends, family, last this long.  And actually, were it not for my husband being so stubborn about not letting me sabotage our marriage and take me seriously when I say we should break up, we wouldn't still be together.  It could be as simple as trying to find something on television.  I'll see that we can't find anything we BOTH like and what I say is automatic.  "We don't like ANYTHING the same!"  This used to lead to my breakup conversation - yes, over something as simple as finding something on television.  But now Mark just sighs and rolls his eyes and says "I know, we have NOTHING in common and need to break up, RIGHT?".  Then I realize where my train of thought is going and he's right.  I do tend to push everyone away whether I am aware of it or not.  Maybe it's a survival thing - push everyone away before they have the chance to push me away and ...
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