Catching Up Before I Forget...
I have absolutely no idea what I have written to date. Writing is so incredibly therapeutic to me, I am going to get back into the habit of writing regularly again.My divorce was final on August 24. I thought I would be great, happy even. I was SO wrong. I didn ' t even know I was falling apart the week before the divorce was final, but I knew I felt emotionally overwhelmed. I kept listening to the song " Over My Head (Cable Car) by the Fray, identifying with the lyrics, yet...it never clicked in my head that I was about to...I guess have a kind of breakdown I suppose? No, not the breakdown - breakthrough type.I ' ve discovered something about myself. I am not sure if this is a new discovery or if it ' s in my blog a trillion times. I know that I KNEW it about myself, it ' s just been CRAZY MAGNIFIED now.I already knew I had a really big fear with people getting close to me then hurting me, so I would push them away before they had the chance to hurt me.But then starting in August 2016, my ex boyfriend from the 90 ' s mother contacted me to tell me he had committed suicide. We had become friendly and sent messages back and forth, yet I knew something had been wrong for awhile. Suicide is not easy to reconcile in your mind at ALL, although I understood more than others who had not experienced the feelings, I ' m sure.Four months later (December 2016), my mother ' s husband sent a message through Facebook to tell me th...
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