Worth the Struggle

Cough No.2 Tuesday - Entry 22: Today is day Day 21 of my bout with the flu and bronchitis. For a while we thought I had pnuemonia, but my doctors seem to be conflicted on that diagnosis. Certainly my lungs don't show the precense of pnuemonia now, so perhaps we caught it in time. The weekend after New Year's was a scary one indeed, full of gasping and bloody sputum. I've had bronchitis repeatedly through my life. That was not bronchitis. Being sick is all I've managed to do well these past three weeks. Today I showered for the first time in a few days, then had to sit down. I watched an episode of Downton Abbey, then got up to eat afterwards. I'm afraid I only managed to set out some fish to thaw before I had to sit down again. I have had better days with more energy, but it seems one of the distinguishing characteristics of this blasted flu is intermittant wellness. Still, I honestly feel that I am getting worse, not better. Twenty one days of this is a bit much to deal with. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't discouraged or feeling down. But I press on. I'm bound to get better despite the setbacks, and one day I'll look back on this as if it were a misty dream. For the time being, however, I am finding it challenging to fight off Depression. My spirits aren't at their highest. In general some days will always be harder to manage Depression than others. Life throws various things at us and not all of them are good. Sometimes some days are just harder for no reason at al...
Source: The Splintered Mind by Douglas Cootey - Category: Mental Illness Tags: Coping Journaling Depression Family Source Type: blogs