My First MDMA Journey (Solo)

Yesterday I had my first MDMA journey, alone. I had planned to do it about two weeks in advance, knowing it was going to be a big deal for me. It was not what I expected. But I think it was the most remarkably life-shifting experience I’ve ever had. I can tell it changed me profoundly. The short version is that it was like having my higher self embody me fully for 8-9 hours, letting me feel HIS feelings, hear HIS thoughts, speak with HIS voice, understand HIS perspective, and experience HIS energy. No, it wasn’t LIKE that. It was EXACTLY that. Here’s the more detailed version: I got up early that morning, a little after 4am, had a light breakfast of mostly fruit, and took a microdose (75mg) of shrooms at 5:15am. My plan was, as the shroom energy invited, that it would introduce me to MDMA and help guide me into it. It had been helping me prep for this experience for at least the week leading up to it. It kept sharing that it was going to be a bigger deal than I could possibly imagine, but it also couldn’t spoil the surprise. I trusted it about that, and it was right. The shroom energy is very familiar to me now after a month of microdosing, so I also wanted it there in the background like a trusted friend. Even though MDMA rarely leads to a bad trip experience and typically leads to blissful feelings, I wanted to build some trust with it first. I did not want a human sitter, so I invited the shroom energy to act as my sitter for this first ...
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