Not As Happy

On the way home from school, I started feeling depressed. I couldn't pinpoint exactly why except that I felt lonely and was tired of reaching out to people with nothing to show for it.  I was tired of being extroverted 24/7. In retrospect, I was extremely hungry. I had run first thing that morning and didn't have enough to eat by that time.  But the issue remains.I think it's time for me to let go of people in Texas. There's no reason to hold on to them.  I wasn't friends (meaning, go out and do things with someone) with anyone when I was there any more, why try to maintain old friendships long distance now that I'm gone?  The technical age has brought us facebook, twitter, all of these great ways to stay in touch but maybe that's not always for the best.  I felt very lonely when I was living in Texas for quite a long time and I now have a fresh start and have found many avenues to meet new people, but it's tiring.  I have a women's club meeting I'm going to attend, a running club I'm joining, all in the new city I'm moving to next week when our house closes. It would be nice if someone, ANYONE, would reach out to me for a change instead of me initiating all the time. But, how would the women's club or running club know I existed if I hadn't contacted them?  So I guess that's not fair. Mark is hoping we'll actually have neighbors we can be friends with this time (as opposed to just being friendly), but I'm skeptical. I have yet to ...
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