A Betraying Breath : Living In The Uncertainty Of A Chronic Illness

All it takes is but a single breath for life to become so very real. In a single breath the heaviness of life and its fragility can pour into the depths of the soul. In a single breath lives a reality that is unchangeable, unfair, and heartbreaking. Within a single breath lives my very truth from which I so often times am on a quest to outrun. A truth that every breath I am given does not come without cost or heartache. A truth that is blended amidst quiet embers of fear waiting to ignite into a consuming blaze - waiting silently to steal that very breath and this life I love. Betrayal in a Single Breath Without conscious thought I take a breath and without a second thought give it back to the world. I take another. But this one is familiarly different. I feel a catch as the air pours into my lungs and I grip onto the very breath that knowingly has given me this moment. My mouth fills with a taste I've tried to erase from my mind. My heart sinks and every breath I've taken for granted suddenly finds its weight and meaning within my chest. As I rush to the bathroom I already know within that single breath lies the truth I wish I could extinguish. The bright white porcelain of my sink a glaring contrast next to the truth of this life with cystic fibrosis - a truth painted in the most vibrant and unforgettable color of red. The color of blood. As I clench the sides of the sink with my fingers, a flood of past memories surge through my body. A million thoughts run through my ...
Source: Healthy Living - The Huffington Post - Category: Consumer Health News Source Type: news