I Am Processing It...

I feel much better today, but I did take two Adderall, and for some reason that really affects my mood. I still have 14 overdue wreaths, but I started with 28 when my ecommerce site delisted my items. It was a totally positive thing, even though I had already closed my shop.My therapist/psychiatrist fit me in for a therapy appointment last week, I think Friday? It was a much tougher appointment than I have had in a very long time - many years at least. I wish I understood myself better, why some things are harder to talk about or even think about. Why?I was basically freaking out over my anxiety, it feels so physically painful, it seemed like it had graduated from anxiety to one big, long anxiety attack (is there a difference? I have no clue). Let ' s just say much worse. When I went in to talk to her, I was unsure what to say, what was causing it.Yes, the election is causing everyone in the country anxiety, and I would imagine many have anxiety a million times worse than I do over it. When I was in her office, I had already resigned myself to not caring. What was the point? Apparently we are to believe the world is going to end somehow no matter who is elected.As my college government teacher once answered a " what if " question of mine once, " It is moot " . I had to look that up! He did not answer my question because....whatever I had asked himhad never happened before so there was no reason to speculate.I st...
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