I want to go dancing.....
Managing wrote:What really sucks is that no matter how many things you do to keep yourself busy you are still kind of forced to be alone as the spouse of a chronically ill person. I want so badly to go dancing with a man. To go on little adventures together instead of just sitting in the house with a blaring TV in order be with him. . . and him dozing in and out of sleep anyway. I am very lonely. Friends just don't fill the spouse gap. I think I will always be mad at him for not caring enough about my quality of life to even TRY to take care of his health so he can do things with me. He has given up on life. And in do...
Source: Wife of a Diabetic - July 7, 2018 Category: Endocrinology Tags: congestive heart failure dancing dementia diabetes ketoacidosis Source Type: blogs
Day in and day out - life goes on
Have I become numb to living with diabetes? And is that just ok? Sometimes I wonder! My sister was here yesterday and our truck was done at the shop. He comes out and asks me if I want to take him to get it. I said, "when we're done with our visit." I thought my tone was pleasant - I was enjoying my sister's company. He immediately turned snarky and said, "you don't have to if you don't want to." and walked out the door to the mail box.I looked at my sister with nothing but sorry in my eyes. Sorrow that she had to see him get in a snit because I didn't jump at his command! But s...
Source: Wife of a Diabetic - June 9, 2018 Category: Endocrinology Tags: camping diabetes gastroparentesis lipohypertrophy sugar low Source Type: blogs
labs and kidney ultrasound
A lot of my posts here are just to keep a journal of what's going on. His labs are declining. The nephrologist called and wants to schedule an ultrasound of his kidneys as he thinks there might be a tumor.My best guess - it's his heart. Here's why I say that.His last labs were 1/18. Current labs were 4/13.BUN jumped from 26 to 36. Normal is 7 - 23. It's been as high as 63 in the past! It's the test for blood in the urine and normally means either there is something blocking the kidneys, you are exercising too much, or your heart is not pumping enough blood through the kidneys.His A1c is 8...
Source: Wife of a Diabetic - April 21, 2018 Category: Endocrinology Source Type: blogs
Going blind
He's refusing to go see the eye doctor.For awhile, he just had "floaters" clouding his vision.Then it was florescent blue spots.Now, there are flashes of bright white light and it happens when his eyes are closed.From what I can see from internet research, his retinas are detaching.There are thing that could be done to help him.He's refusing to go to the doctor.....for anything.He cannot see anything from sunrise til about 11 am, or from about 2:30 pm til sunset. He says it just looks blank in front of him, but he can see some around the edges. He thinks it the direction of the sun.I asked him yesterday what his ...
Source: Wife of a Diabetic - April 7, 2018 Category: Endocrinology Source Type: blogs
Interesting things about traveling
He had a very hard time adjusting to altitude changes. I thought that was interesting. The higher the altitude, the more nitroglycerin he took and the more difficulty he had breathing. I don't think either of us were prepared for that.Temperature changes affected him as well. If he got cold, he put on gloves....and I'd be so hot I'd have the AC on blast!Almost a comedy of errors. He worried constantly about having enough insulin. I reassured him that we were never more than 3 or 4 days from home and could start back any time he wanted.We were gone almost a month. I loved every moment of ...
Source: Wife of a Diabetic - March 9, 2018 Category: Endocrinology Source Type: blogs
Day 23 of traveling with Diabetes.
There have been great days, good days, bad days and horribly awful days. Just the same as when we are at home. But I am living in a 17' travel trailer and all the utter nastiness of diabetes is in my face 24/7. Thankfully, I can go outside a lot as we are in southern Arizona and the weather has been amazing!We extended our time here by 10 days. I am having so much fun visiting with my sister and exploring the area. My brother-in-law comes by every day to have a chat with hubby. They have their RV about a mile from the "resort" we are staying in.I suppose we are not really on the road as we set...
Source: Wife of a Diabetic - February 14, 2018 Category: Endocrinology Source Type: blogs
Why?
why do diabetics get in such snits when they have a sugar crash?Why don ’t diabetics eat on schedule?Why don ’t they test regularly?Why don ’t they take better care of themselves?Why does a diabetic expect their spouse to take care of them?If you know you have sugar crashes, why don ’t you carry your glucose tabs in your pocket?Why do you expect someone else to go get them for you?Why do you think the world revolves around you, when it doesn ’t?Why do you have to get pissed off in public and show your ugliest version of yourself when you are crashing?Why do you take it out on your spouse?Why can ’t you remember...
Source: Wife of a Diabetic - January 31, 2018 Category: Endocrinology Source Type: blogs
