No Sleep - Just Crying
I think I slept from 6:30 am - 8:30 am this morning. I cried for hours and finally fell asleep. I took klonipin thinking it would help me stop crying, but it really didn ' t do anything. I woke up at 8:30, started crying again, then sobbing, and I finally got up and just came out of my room.I ' m staying with the people that I lived with when I was in high school. The mother ' s husband is gone, her daughter and I are bickering like crazy, but I do feel safe emotionally here. I was sobbing but grabbed Bailey and walked out of my room. I didn ' t want sympathy, I just did not want to be alone in my room any long with my thoughts - I wanted to be around people.Now I see that is the key to getting better. It will have to be small doses at a time maybe, especially Tara (OMG), but luckily Cher is so understanding. Not sure how long that will last but she is truly my lifesaver right now. So patient and kind. I woke up sobbing about Blake. Right now, I don ' t care about him much at all - don ' t want to talk to him or have anything to do with him. When I am alone, I fixate on the whole situation. That needs to stop.My depression last night and this morning were HORRIBLE, but I have not taken klonipin and feel okay at the moment. Not great, still a heaviness in my chest and I can tell something is wrong, but I can look at the future and see promise. Hope. I have hope. If, in the future...
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