Today is the greatest day i ' ve ever known.

Last night was my first night not taking Trazadone, but not by choice. My psych wrote my prescription wrong and I did not realize it so I ran out early. At first I panicked when I realized I was going to run out, although I noticed right away I was way short. Today is only the first morning without it and the first day on Adderall without having it for about a week, so it is hard to say how I will feel without it. I do not think I slept much if at all last night.I am really, really behind on my Amazon orders and not sure if they are going to drop me, but the past is the past and all I can do is go forward.Which is all I can do with the crappy Department of Education letter I got yesterday. I have no idea what to do with that. I can ' t pay it. I guess declare bankruptcy, but that costs money which I have to get from Chris. Won ' t they want to know where I got the money for that?So many issues, I have been depressed for quite awhile, but since today is the day I got back on Adderall and I want to conquer everything I have been pushing back and been crazy anxious about for weeks, if I keep blogging, I am sure I will be writing about it soon.I found myself thinking it would be so nice just to end my life in the past week or longer. I was weary, was just tired of my situation, being a loser, being 48 and my life turning out to be a big zero with my birthday just days away. No friends. No close family members. No childre...
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