I'm not a normal teenage guy

I swear I'm not normal. I feel like I'm an "old soul", literally. I have traditional values, I find women back in the 30s-50s era the most beautiful, and I hate how women dress s.ty and have piercings. I even hate ear piercings. The thing that makes me most abnormal, is I don't really think about sex, and I really only want a girlfriend so I can have a companion, not for sex or anything like that. If I didn't have cf I'd love to live in the 30s and 40s era. I also hate saying that women are "hot", instead I prefer the words pretty and beautiful. But here's where my main question comes in, I have cf, I rarely ever think about sex, and I don't really crave it like guys are supposed to, and I don't get physically aroused when I look at a beautiful girl. I do masturbate a lot, but I have a hard time "performing". The thought of sex terrifies me and I kinda maybe think that the ****** (if it gets blocked, the woman area down there) is sorta gross looking. My friends joke around with me saying I'll be the 40 year old virgin cause I'm almost 19 and that thought doesn't really bother me. The only thought that bothers me is not having kids. That's something I want so desperately by the hopeful age of 21 or so (it's always been that age lol, when I was younger I told my mom I want kids by then cause I figured I'd die at an early age due to cf and I have to make sure my kids have a lot of time with their grandparents cause my parents had me later in their...
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