What a state of mind...

Yesterday I awoke really early, feeling at long last semi-normal. YES! The flu was finally behind me--my body had mended and I could enjoy it sans pain and discomfort!  I was able to begin the day with my yoga routine, cycle a bit and looked forward to walking with my husband once he awoke.

That is ... until ... while moving from the family room (where I'd begun working on our taxes) into the kitchen one of our cats hurried in front of me where somehow her body became enmeshed with my moving legs. Within seconds my back jerked into spasm as I attempted to un-twine our kitty and %~*@#!  The jolt of pain was swift and severe. 
Frankly I was stunned by my reaction. I screamed and then screamed some more. So many choice expletives left my lips that even I felt slightly offended. Our cat ran as far away as quickly as possible. Which was probably a good thing, as in that moment she was whom I was blaming (and loudly). When I eventually made it into our bedroom I was in tears. The words, "I can't believe this is happening to me" came stuttering out. In my mind (or maybe out loud--not sure) I thought, "I don't deserve this!"
Nope. No one deserves that sort of start to their day. But I, of all people, know that stuff happens. I realized that I'd been engaging in my long-ago habit of magical thinking--if I do everything right (get plenty of rest, take my vitamins, etc., etc.,) I'll be "safe"--it's a thought process I thought I'd abandoned, but evidently not.
Tom played his ...

Source: Advice for Parents - March 8, 2013 Category: Eating Disorders Authors: Doris Smeltzer Source Type: blogs