Emotional Mess!

I have been on the absolute worst emotional rollercoaster for the past few days, it has been a nightmare! Things would get into my mind and fester, growing worse and worse and giving me more anxiety, angst, sadness, anger, the whole range of intense emotions for the entire day.Mark has been the one who has been tolerating my craziness, and I mean it must seem like absolute abandonment of emotional control. He has been so, so patient and understanding, not suggesting anything like not taking medication, mania, simply replying to my rambling, constant and upset texts all day long when I KNOW he is especially busy. He will even call me concerned because I am so upset.I had a moment last night where I was thinking through WHY I was not able to get ahold of myself - klonipin has calmed me but it ' s not enough. I was telling him how there have been many times when I had missed feeling so passionate and so deeply about things, how I thought I felt dull on medication, but it was hell feeling such intense emotions. Of course I assumed it was my illness, what else could it be? Along with stress of course, triggered by stress. That is what I assumed.He said no, he totally did not think that was it. He said this is how I feel and act when I take steroids for an infection (Prednisone), and that is why I have always hated it so much. Wow...I was shocked and relieved at the same time. Yes, he is right, I have always fought and argued with m...
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