It ' s 2:00 am I Must Be Lonely

It ' s 1:42am on Monday, Memorial Day. & nbsp;I have been up for at least an hour. & nbsp;I would say " typical " , but since I have been taking Zonegran, I have been sleeping SO MUCH, and when I am not sleeping I have zero energy. & nbsp;It comes in capsules, so I asked my psychiatrist if I could take half last night - just open up the capsule, take half, and put the cap back on. & nbsp;She said I could. < br / > < br / > This is new to me. & nbsp;Normally, and never before would I have asked to do that. & nbsp;I would have just done it and told my doctor on my next visit. & nbsp;But she read in my psychiatrist ' s records that I do that often, so she really stressed that we needed to be a team, as well as I needed to feel comfortable enough with her to even tell her if I took illegal drugs. & nbsp;The only thing I have not told her is that I take extra Adderall because many times one is not enough. & nbsp;I will tell her next time but I feel so ashamed. < br / > < br / > My friend who I have been talking to who is severely depressed is checking into a psychiatric facility tomorrow around 10:00am. & nbsp;I am so glad and very proud of her for having the courage to do that. & nbsp;For me, it was so hard. & nbsp;She told me she was a bit anxious, but *I* know that truth and told her how high my anxiety level had been. & nbsp;She admitted yes, that was how she felt as well. & nbsp;I wonder, even if you trust someone, why people (including myself) tend to minimize our feelings. ...
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