A Kidney Stone Plus Old MS Symptoms Try My Patience

I don’t remember exactly where I heard or read a phrase about being the beneficiary of other people’s patience. I do seem to remember that it was in a negative context and that it had to do with the decline of existence. Something like, “with nothing left but to be the beneficiary of other people’s patience…” I’m beginning to think that, while I hope that I am far from such a place, perhaps I should be a bit more patient with myself. Last month, after a particularly busy run of things, I was hit by a kidney stone. The sharp little bugger took some time to pass, and I must admit that when it did I was left feeling quite diminished – a feeling that has yet to dissipate completely. While others in my life have afforded me their support, kindness, and yes, even patience, I do not think I have allowed that same to myself. Giving Myself Permission to Heal I have had a cascade of old multiple sclerosis symptoms revisit as I recover from the kidney stone, and I find myself stating aloud how much I hate MS. I battle harder against a wall which feels twice as thick as it was before – and let’s face it, the wall of MS can be pretty damned thick all by itself. I chide myself by saying “Just get through this” and “Don’t give in” when what I may need more is an understanding inner voice granting me permission to take some time and heal. Perhaps this is a lesson we could all use from time to time. This sense of slower than usual...
Source: Life with MS - Category: Neurology Authors: Tags: multiple sclerosis Source Type: blogs