Go Water Your Eggs or Something

Monday - Entry 36:Not sure where to begin. Let’s try this: And then I was depressed.There. I can work with a beginning like that. It’s spells out the problem and hints that something happened before I made my realization.This day has been a hard one to get through. The sickness lingers, sapping me of energy & strength. Each cough is a gagging experience. My lungs burn. My head throbs. I’ve been sick like this since August 21st. I know. I know. I promised not to count the days. I haven’t. I just remember acutely the day my life ended. You’ll have to forgive me. I don’t consider lying on the couch being productive, having an adventure, or living for that matter.I’m pretty discouraged. I’ve even given up on reaching out to people for comfort. Conversations sound too much like this:Me: Hi, it’s Douglas.Them: Oh, hey! How are you doing?Me: Still sick, but hanging in there. Got a moment?Them: Oh, jeez…Me: Excuse me?Them: Oh look! I have to, um, water my eggs or something.Me: What?Them: Byeee!Or…Them: So, you’re still sick, huh?Me: kaff kaff kaff wheeze kaff kaff kaff kaffThem: You sound terrible. I worry that you don’t sound like your normal self anymore.Me: …kaffThem: You need to think more positively about yourself. Then you won’t be so sick all the time.Me: kaff kaff kaff But kaff kaff I’m tryinkaff!Them: Yeah, your problem is negativity.Me: I’ll kaff show kaffkaff you negakaffkaffkaffKAFF wheezeOn the upside I am slightly better. When I gag...
Source: The Splintered Mind by Douglas Cootey - Category: Mental Illness Tags: Journaling Writing Depression Therapizing Source Type: blogs