Choosing Freedom, After Decades of Switching Addictions

This article includes references to self-injury, intravenous drug use and disordered eating.* One in five US high school students have reported being bullied. Approximately 160,000 teenagers have skipped school as a preventative measure. I encountered bullies for the first time in second grade, in the midst of such an innocent time of my youth. I dreaded entering my elementary school classroom, as I was well aware of what my presence would entail. I endured both verbal and physical harassment from my fellow peers for nearly a decade. I was passive, inevitably leading to the acceptance of my “fate,” in addition to suffering in silence. My mother was exceedingly popular in bygone days. She was a cheerleader, with a whole host of friends. I admired my mom, but I was fearful when it came to the possibility of disappointing her. When I considered unveiling the truth about my school life, my undoubted hesitation drove me to opt out.  Holding in so much agony and depression compromised my sanity. I craved an escape from the turmoil that ran rampant inside of me. Plastering a fake smile onto my face each day to appease my mother only worsened the matter. One evening after school, I filled my void to satiety. I can vividly recall cutting the flesh of my inner forearm with a razor blade. Self-mutilation releases endorphins that can produce euphoria and calmness, making it a dangerously addictive habit. I proceeded down this road for several years. The benefits I reape...
Source: Psych Central - Category: Psychiatry Authors: Tags: Addictions Anorexia Bullying Depression Eating Disorders Personal Stories Substance Abuse Addiction Recovery Anorexia Nervosa Drug Use heroin Self Harm Self Injury Source Type: news

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CONCLUSIONS: Based on these results, 8.1% of Mexican general population without a history of liver disease is at high risk of having advanced liver fibrosis and complications and death derived from cardiovascular disease and cirrhosis. Most of them showed normal ALT serum levels. PMID: 32063504 [PubMed - as supplied by publisher]
Source: Annals of Hepatology - Category: Gastroenterology Tags: Ann Hepatol Source Type: research
Authors: Meunier L, Larrey D Abstract Some drugs may induce hepatotoxic lesions, such as steatosis or steatohepatitis found in Non-Alcoholic Fatty Liver Disease (NAFLD). Among these drugs there are some anti-tumoral molecules, such as methotrexate, 5-fluorouracil, irinotecan, tamoxifen and l-asparaginase. The hepatotoxic phenotype developed from treatment with such drugs is known as "CASH" for "Chemotherapy-induced Acute Steatohepatitis". The mechanism of toxicity is essentially based on mitochondrial toxicity. These lesions are chronic and often reversible when the treatment is stopped. Contrib...
Source: Annals of Hepatology - Category: Gastroenterology Tags: Ann Hepatol Source Type: research
ConclusionLET is a rare cutaneous lupus-specific lesion that may be associated with SLE. AITD, hypothyroidism in particular, could be an initial presentation of SLE. Increased awareness and early diagnosis of such clinical presentations may improve patient outcomes.
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The objective of this research article was to assess the trend of hospitalization, epidemiological characteristics and economic burden in the young adult, aged 18–45 years, presenting with atrial fibrillation.MethodsHospitalization data from the National Inpatient Sample between 2005 and 2015 were used to analyze prevalence of risk factors and financial burden in young adults with atrial fibrillation.ResultsFrom 2005 to 2015, a total of 260,080 admissions were included in the study. From 2005 to 2015, there was a decreasing trend of total admissions with atrial fibrillation among the age group of 18–45 years co...
Source: Heart and Lung: The Journal of Acute and Critical Care - Category: Respiratory Medicine Source Type: research
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Source: International Journal of Psychophysiology - Category: Psychiatry & Psychology Source Type: research
Do children of depressed parents exhibit greater parent- and self-reported sleep disturbance compared to those without any parental psychopathology?Journal of Pediatric Psychology
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Conclusions: AUD patients with excessive alcohol use had a higher risk of arrhythmia and sudden death compared to the control group. Consideration of ECG and referral to cardiologic examinations would contribute to the follow-up and health of patients with AUD. PMID: 32065846 [PubMed - in process]
Source: The Primary Care Companion for CNS Disorders - Category: Primary Care Tags: Prim Care Companion CNS Disord Source Type: research
I just read an interesting BBC article about why there are significantly more vegan women than men, which is mostly summarized by this statement at the top: When women hold two incompatible beliefs, they’re more likely to change their behaviour to reconcile them. Men, by comparison, tend to dig themselves in. The article cites a variety of studies that delve into gender differences and how these connect with dietary decisions. Reading it had an odd effect on me, making my vegan side feel good and my male side feel primitive and stupid. While I do consider myself an ethical vegan today, this article reminded ...
Source: Steve Pavlina's Personal Development Blog - Category: Psychiatry & Psychology Authors: Tags: Health Lifestyle Values Source Type: blogs
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Source: Materials Today: Proceedings - Category: Materials Science Source Type: research
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