I ’m afraid of killing the ones I love. It makes me suffer all the time

Dear members of the forum, I know this is not supposed to be for getting a diagnosis and it’s not what I’m asking for. I wonder if this has some precedent as I don’t reach to find an answer wether in internet or at my psychologist. Since a few years I have fears of knives and killing the ones I love. Subconsciously, my mind, which goes 1000 miles an hour, and is very visual and graphic, makes me imagine what it would look like and how it could happen in 2000 ways, the consequences etc.... I’m afraid of killing the ones I love. It makes me suffer all the time
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