One Thousand Tomorrows

I use to thinkThat 1,000 tomorrows would make upFor 52 bad yesterday's.Ah,hope springs young,& eternalYears passA thousand tomorrows will soon be todayAnd turn into yesterdays.Normal numbers don't save meFrom the darkness of the place I'm in.I don't see the light.I don't see the hope.I don't see the promise of tomorrow.There is only today,& living the pain.(And the further spiral of the numbers.)Yesterday probably even wasn't that bad,because yesterday I was at least breathing.And my yesterdays with diabetes now match those without.(16.5 + 16.5)This also I knowThat a bad todayKeeps you from feeling the promise of tomorrowAnd that it doesn't have to be permanent thing.(But like diabetes,depression just kind of sneaks up on you,smacks you on the head,and delivers a boatload of other difficulties to keep you in that place. And I'm tired,& probably my thyroid levels are completely whacko and I'm fully aware I need to go to my pcp and get back on something. I know. I'll get sorted out.)One step at a time.One today at a time.Turning into tomorrows.
Source: The D-Log Cabin - Category: Endocrinology Authors: Source Type: blogs