Cancer Is Scary, but It’s the MRI Machine That Terrifies Me

I mentioned in last’s week blog that I don’t scare easily. Well, that might not be completely true. I have two real fears — and they are major! For one thing, I am totally afraid of falling off a cruise ship. I am convinced that someone falls off a ship on every cruise. I can’t imagine anything more terrifying than finding yourself in the middle of the ocean, with the big boat you were on moving off into the horizon without you. I know that sounds random and irrational, but there you have it. My Biggest Fear My other fear is perhaps more relatable, especially for other women who may be living with metastatic breast cancer. I am terrified of the MRI machine. I don’t believe I have ever been claustrophobic, but I sure am when I’m in that tube. This phobia developed after two previous tests. I have even said that I would rather die than have another MRI scan, but apparently, I won’t get the chance. I am subjecting myself to another MRI tomorrow. Why? Because Dr. Khan, my oncologist, wants a skeletal MRI scan to review how extensive the bone metastases are. I am dealing with it by telling everyone. (So much for keeping my fears to myself.) My sister is coming from Toronto to go with me, and my friend Cheryl is taking the morning off from work. I can’t take my husband, because he’s not good at waiting. His restlessness while sitting in waiting rooms makes me crazy, and besides, I’m not sure that he really stays in the clinic while I am undergoing t...
Source: Life with Breast Cancer - Category: Cancer & Oncology Authors: Tags: Breast Cancer Source Type: blogs