Be. Here. Now. (an update)

I just had a bath to help me relax. I plopped a bath cube in the water and immediately started to worry that it was the last one and that I needed to make time to get more."Be. Here. Now."Then my phone alarm went off to remind me to take the supplements that I have been forgetting. I had to get Tim to come and switch it off, so that I didn't have to climb out of the hot water. He took the phone right out of the bathroom when he left."Be. Here. Now."There is a lot of uncertainty in my life right now. I still haven't had the MRI that will tell me if the Cyber Knife radiation I had in December got rid of the tumours. Meanwhile, I am experiencing symptoms that are difficult, exhausting and disconcerting.My head hurts on the right at the front of my forehead.I have an earache, that sometimes extends to my jaw and throat.The right side of my face tingles from my chin to my forehead, when I stand up.There is something wrong with my balance.I have begun to feel a pressure behind my right eye.I don't have all the symptoms at once and they are not debilitating. They are exhausting. And scary.I found out online that sometimes symptoms like this can appear, a few months after Cyber Knife treatment, so this could all just be part of the healing process. I cried when I read that. Maybe someone told me that when I was treated but I don't remember.The brain MRI was ordered for February. A machine has broken at the hospital and they are behind. It was finally scheduled for March 12. This...
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