It's 2:00 am I Must Be Lonely

It's 1:42am on Monday, Memorial Day.  I have been up for at least an hour.  I would say "typical", but since I have been taking Zonegran, I have been sleeping SO MUCH, and when I am not sleeping I have zero energy.  It comes in capsules, so I asked my psychiatrist if I could take half last night - just open up the capsule, take half, and put the cap back on.  She said I could.This is new to me.  Normally, and never before would I have asked to do that.  I would have just done it and told my doctor on my next visit.  But she read in my psychiatrist's records that I do that often, so she really stressed that we needed to be a team, as well as I needed to feel comfortable enough with her to even tell her if I took illegal drugs.  The only thing I have not told her is that I take extra Adderall because many times one is not enough.  I will tell her next time but I feel so ashamed.My friend who I have been talking to who is severely depressed is checking into a psychiatric facility tomorrow around 10:00am.  I am so glad and very proud of her for having the courage to do that.  For me, it was so hard.  She told me she was a bit anxious, but *I* know that truth and told her how high my anxiety level had been.  She admitted yes, that was how she felt as well.  I wonder, even if you trust someone, why people (including myself) tend to minimize our feelings.  I cannot possibly know how she feels, about anything ...
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