How I Choose Happiness

For the longest, I didn't see the light. I only saw the dark, the shadows. I was lost in the forest. I struggled with chronic headaches, depression, self-hate, chronic muscle pains, eating disorders, trauma from being abused growing up, and so on. I desperately wanted to heal. I just wanted to be happy, healthy and free. I wanted happiness, health and freedom so badly that I forgot to think about what these words meant. I imagined happiness, health and freedom as a destination, where I arrive and I will have nothing else to do, but to soak on the sun and hang my feet by the ocean. I imagined it as a permanent destination that something will take me to: I would get fixed and I would be there. I was looking at my problems as separate issues. My original prescription was ibuprofen for my headaches, binge eating for anorexia and dark music for my depression. Then as I got into alternative options, I tried juicing and elimination diets for my headaches, listed affirmations for my depression, and self-massaged my muscles. I was still missing the point. I was trying to fix rather than to heal. I was looking at problems and parts of me as separates entities with no relation to one another, as things that we separate from me, problems that needed to be fixed one-by-one. Then suddenly I realized what holistic healing and holistic living truly meant. I realized that I was a holistic being: mind-body-soul. I realized that I couldn't separate issues and I couldn't just fix them, but ...
Source: Healthy Living - The Huffington Post - Category: Consumer Health News Source Type: news