Setting the Scene of Life

"All the world's a stage, And all the men and women are merely players." - Shakespeare Time: Present Setting: An operating room, doctor's office Characters: Ashley (me), Mark, Radiologist, Pulmonologist, Nurses, Receptionists Call it a coping mechanism, a way for me to deal with my reality, or simply a means to save myself from exposing a deep set pain and fear by being solely focused on the present scene. Doing all in hopes of avoiding any thoughts of the next act. Of course, the next act is filled with incredible opportunity and possibility, but it's also filled with pages of uncertainty. There's an unsettled churning within me of what may lie on the next pages of my story: a pang in the pit of my stomach that each hope and dream is entangled amongst. I want to exist in every moment and be thoughtfully present in the scene at hand, living each experience to its fullest. What's that churning pang? The fear of an untamable and uncertain future: an antagonist that is continually trying to undermine and foreshadow a future from which I so desperately want to hide. That character at the center of my life's conflict? Cystic Fibrosis. Act 1 I find myself forced to look ahead and prepare for the coming pages: a portacath is being placed in preparation for future conflicts with CF. A portacath is a medical appliance that is placed beneath the skin for long extended periods of time. A catheter connects the port to a vein in which antibiotics can be administered. Denial has playe...
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